feeling so apathetic i cannot even shop online to make myself feel better. 

The gift of giving, to myself…

This year for Christmas my fathers side of the family has decided to stray from the regular Secret Santa and go with a mutated reverse version of the gift giving game.

There will still be a price limit. Everyone will still get a gift. But this year we are to buy a gift for ourselves and wrap it in brown paper so no one knows who actually owns the gift.

After dinner but before dessert, after a probable screening of hilarious (but mostly embarrassing) family videos, we will pick an anonymous parcel from under the tree and unwrap it. We will then proceed to guess who bought the gift to give to themselves.

On one hand, no disappointment when grandma means well but is just slightly off target. On the other hand, no surprise and nothing to praise (or complain about) on the way home.

Additional conundrums:

• do I buy a gift I want that is obvious or do I go all cryptic and secretive?

• do I just buy something cheap and save the difference or spend a bit extra and get the better thing?

• who do I thank for getting me the gift, do I kiss myself on the cheek and announce how I like the colour/practicality of it with no intention of ever wearing/using it?

• is it still acceptable to buy the annual ‘you did well this year’ indulgent gift to myself or is this it now?

I don know how I feel about this…

thanks, i’m stoked!

how nice.